The life and death of my ambitions

My whole motivational process can be summed up like a wildfire: it burns bright at first, but then it begins to burn less bright when there's nowhere else left to go and eventually turns into a smoldering pile of empty dreams.

[Insert Religious Figure Here] only knows how many different things I've tried to start and how they've all fallen flat on their faces at one point or another before they just stopped getting back up. I'd estimate over 50 ideas come in my head only to commit suicide on a yearly average. Keeping a detailed log doesn't do me a lot of good because that gets lost and the ambition dies even faster. Really need a better way of keeping all my shit together. That, and not writing everything in code to the point that even I can't remember where the fuck I was going with it to start.

I'm bound to say "this one'll be different: I'll surely get it out there" to at least 5% of all the ideas I come up with, and not one has held up to the promise. Sometimes, when I'm bored/depressed/ or a combination of both, I go through the whole "why do I even bother" stage where I'm a lesser emo (emo enough to whine like a bitch, but not emo "enough" to slit my wrists n shit).

Still, eventually the funk goes away, and I keep trying again, hoping to get a little closer to one day getting something complete and done, and just maybe turn my entire process around, because I do come up with some pretty good ideas every now and then, and almost all of them are lost to the eternal void of failure and forgetfullness.

So yeah, now that I got this out of my system, here's a list of shit I still need to get doing:

Video Game Idea (post-apocalypse)
Storys (viking guy, bubbles, and onis: don't ask)
Podcast
Toku-hero parody series
A semi-animated/animatic or webcomic series